it’s official

As of tomorrow when I hand the first deposit in, I am officially going to be going to europe next winter! Yay!

-A

part of Ulysses, by Alfred Lord Tennyson

I cannot rest from travel: I will drink
Life to the lees: all times I have enjoyed
Greatly, have suffered greatly, both with those
That loved me, and alone; on shore, and when
Through scudding drifts the rainy Hyades
Vest the dim sea: I am become a name;
For always roaming with a hungry heart
Much have I seen and known; cities of men
And manners, climates, councils, governments,
Myself not least, but honoured of them all;
And drunk delight of battle with my peers;
Far on the ringing plains of windy Troy.
I am part of all that I have met;
Yet all experience is an arch wherethrough
Gleams that untravelled world, whose margin fades
For ever and for ever when I move.
How dull it is to pause, to make an end,
To rust unburnished, not to shine in use!
As though to breath were life. Life piled on life
Were all to little, and of one to me
Little remains: but every hour is saved
From that eternal silence, something more,
A bringer of new things; and vile it were
For some three suns to store and hoard myself,
And this gray spirit yearning in desire
To follow knowledge like a sinking star,
Beyond the utmost bound of human thought.

time out

I unplugged my facebook a day or so ago.  No, I didn’t cancel my account, but I basically decided that I’m not going to go on it until after my final exams are over, which is sometime in the middle of may. No one knows this yet, but the idea is that by the time may rolls around, I will be okay enough to either completely delete my account or at least just go on it like once a month or so. I don’t have a particular problem with facebook or the internet ( I mean, hello- I’m blogging), it’s just that it’s such a time waster, I could be doing other things.

On different news, I have so much work to do this week, and my mind is on thoughts of spring break next week. I neeeeeed to go home! It’s not even that I miss my family/friends; I just need to be off campus for a while, I’m getting cabin fever, so to speak.

On different, different news, Spring Equinox is on Friday! Yay!

-A

to be pitied…

we managed to work everything out, her and I. not something that I had anticipated happening, but good news nonetheless. and now for something completely different… something a friend of mine said to me this morning got me thinking. a bunch of us were talking about how it was wierd that some people were going home this weekend since our spring break starts next weekend. one of my other friends said, yeah, but maybe their girl/boyfriends’ breaks are this week or w/e. I said hmm, i see that, but i personally wouldn’t go out of my way, i would just wait until summer b/c it wouldn’t be a big deal to me. then my other friend matt asked me if I had ever been in love, and i said no. but wait, then he said, ok, but wouldn’t you do anything for love. and of course being the ham that i am, i said but i won’t do that (it’s a song for those of you that missed the 80s)! then he said that he pitied me. That’s right. He said, “I feel sorry for you because you will never find/be open to true love.” What the fuck? First of all, I’m 19. I think I’ve got some time. That kind of pissed me off; I don’t feel sorry for myself, I lead a very full life, and I don’t want to be pitied, especially for not having fallen in love yet, which is one of the most assanine things to be pitied for. This is the millionth time that some of my ‘friends’ have made me feel like I’m the wierd one because I’m a girl that’s not waiting for a guy to come along and complete my life. News flash, no one can complete you, only you can complete you.

something i forgot about…

i had a little chat with my roomie, and we are both going to end up staying the situation pretty much resolved itself, a couple of months in a different room won’t change anything

interview

so I had my RA interview/group process thing today. I feel like my interview went pretty well although it was short, so idk what to make of it…oh well i guess i’ll find out in a couple of weeks.

on another note, i’m kind of over this living in a dorm thing, not to say that everyone else loves it, but i need some space, there are waaay too many people around. Don’t get me wrong, I like to hang out with my friends, but I also like to be alone sometimes, something that I don’t get to do that often nowadays…

i’m doing better with oboe too, I think that’s because I don’t care/obsess about it anymore. I just want to pass my level A and after that just f* it and focus on my real major, which is music ed (not that I won’t be playing, obviously i will, but I won’t be slaving over level preparations).  speaking of which, I’m going to add spanish as a minor this week, or i’m going to try; it’s something extra that I can do, so why not?

so about my mysterious disappearance…

I wanted to write a cathartic post as soon as my roomate left…the little &^%*&$ hasn’t left yet, so just be patient, I hope I can…

rush

don’t really have time for my whole day but let me just say this: *&asfd&^&^$*sdfa!

It actually wasn’t that bad. Sry for the brief randomness.

-A

my fanciful weekend

okay, so the winter formal was actually quite fun, the music was, eh, not as *dancy*. They had some great pieces, but the grand majority of the music was a tad awkward to dance with. I had a lot of fun with my friends, so that was good. The only con to the weekend/this  past week is that I have my period, so I stopped going to the gym this week (bad decision) and have been eating all of this crap, mainly chocolate and ice cream. It’s wierd, because usually I have willpower, but it’s like my body is just like *”shutup! give me sweets!!!” This week I need to stop eating this crap and go back to eating fruits and vegetables again, which I love anyway. Of course, running again this week is going to happen.

*Side note: I actually used to be a distance runner, and I really liked it, then I stopped and it’s been so hard for me to start again so now that I stopped again because of my period I’m actually slightly annoyed at myself because I know how hard it is to start again, so I can’t let it be any more than the week and a half it’s been already.

Anyway, I’m looking forward to just getting by this week. Actually, that’s really ambitious, I’m really just taking it day by day at this point.

-A

firsts

today was the first day I ever had my hair done. recap: we have this  “snowball” at school, and my friend wanted to do my hair so I decided why not. It’s interesting,  I see why girls get their hair done, but I think after tonight, I’m good until next year (at the earliest). I’m more of a no hairspray/heat kind of girl. Anyway, tonight should be fun.

Oh- I might be going to Europe next winter for this class/research project! I’m so excited, I’ll update you guys with any new developments. ♥

-A